What is going on??

I think my mind hates me. I'm spending time with people only to wish that they were somebody else. I hate school, but love what I am studying. I am writing a fun story with a friend and I don't feel like writing. I keep wanting to be happy but I don't have the energy to let myself be. It's a weird circling problem that I dislike but don't know how to fix. With all the weirdness going on, my head is surprisingly clear. I suddenly feel the urge to watch something cute and silly....